I had the biggest amount of confidence I could ever have when I was younger, I lived in Scotland then moved to Wales when I was 6 years old. Had the best confidence I could ever had, everyone in my infant school disliked me because I liked to do well in school and also because I had a Scottish accent. I was different. But through the first few years of that I still had the same amount of confidence due to my passion for performing. I love singing and whilst in Wales I used to be part of a theatre group called the Woodland Players. The adults treated me greatly, but the kids my age especially one girl who was like very good at dancing because she'd been taught ballet, tap dancing and stuff like that she'd be very snobby. People have only ever complimented me for my singing at that time.
Then I when I was during my last few years of primary school I was bullied alot more, and this brought my confidence down a hell of a lot more. It got to the point where I was being stalked outside of school, threatened and actually physically beaten. So we moved back to Scotland when I was 11. Same thing happened with the change, because I had a mixed accent I sounded English. So everyone thought I was English haha, and the scots aren't very fond of the English so they didn't want to get to know me.
When I started high school I was unliked there too, because everyone in my town had soon got to dislike me because of everyone else. I gained 2 friends, but they werent friends. They treated me like crap, but because I'd been so lonely I still stuck with them I didn't want to be hated more for being a "loner". These so called mates would make fun of me in front of me, and basically put me down, and ignore me half of the time. They'd only come to me when they wanted help or someone to talk to. Shame it didn't work the other way around.
Never the less in my last year of high school (6th Form) they all still treated me badly. I was so depressed that I begged and pleaded with my mum to let me leave, But because neither parent works, she wouldn't let me because she was getting money from me being in school.. This made me feel worse and I ended up crying most of my time. Stuck in my room.
So I threatened to just drop out of school if mum didn't let me and I actually burst into tears in front of her, she saw how depressed it made me and she said it broke her heart to see me this way so she checked up to see if she could get money for me if I left but I'd have to get a job. I got a job straight. but I was ill a lot of the time. And they were breathing down my neck for it. By the end of it I applied to college and I got accepted in.
I went to college in a different town where no one knew me and I made loads of friends with people who actually liked me. But unfortuneatly I was recently kicked out for being off so much. Just before we found out about my condition. So that's life
But I'm glad for it all, because it's made me a stronger person but I still believe I'm ugly and stuff because I'm scared of being brought down again, but someday that'll change lol.
Anyway's I got Iri n the rest of yas to keep me smiling