When I joined July 18 2004 I was a lonely unsocial pessimistic loser I had been to 3 forums before this one the old 1Up, the old Shining Force Central, and that craphole site I won't name, I had no friends there either and I expected the same here lonely, watching others have fun with each other while I sat around watching and when I tried to talk I either got ignored or yelled at by some stupid ass flamer. It was that way for awhile until..uh. I think November, when I first PMed Ratiasu (Dixie at the time) and she was my first online friend and is now my girlfriend I lovem ore than anything in the world and that made me happy my offline life is still hell today because I'm untalented and uncoordinated making a fool out of myself all the time and I have no talent in anything that interests me so I have nothing to interest people besides video games. Which only got me so far (nowhere). I made more friends in my time here and gave me inspiration to join other sites (15 other forums) and I have more friends than ever I trust and make me who I am personality-wise I'm probably a good person offline (my like 3 friends tell me that) but I try too hard to be funny I think that it comes off obnoxious or stupid. So i've changed because i have friends I met my girlfriend here as dangerous as it potentially is I trust Ratiasu, I met my best friend here and all my other friends that mean alot to me and made who I am so I'm happier. I still feeled unfulfilled and as hard as I try it doesn't seem like that'll ever change. But at least I have 16 different places to escape to for help and happiness when I need it most.