Ok- I've been playing FFXI now for nearly a year and I'd say I've made some pretty good progress. Im a level 61 red mage and im in a pretty large LS. I've got good friends, good gear and im so close to being able to do new things.

So why have I developed a phobic aversion to FFXI? I cant bring myself to join exp parties, even good ones seem ultimately dull. The prospect of standing around in Jeuno does nothing for me either. I tried taking up the zilart missions/ CoP missions but when your entire LS seems determined to only focus on Sky raids and HNMs its difficult to get support for even the most simple of tasks. Is this a sign that I simpley should stop playing? Has anyone else been through something similar?

I mean Sky and Dynamis give me something to look forward to but even sitting down for a four level crunch is discouraging. I mean if I go on Dynamis Im last in line for anything, ditto for Sky fights. So what do I do? Just sit around and level fourteen times and be really bored?

People have suggested I try a new job but the prospect of levelling through Valkurm Dunes is probably more depressing than the idea of joining an exp party with redmage.

Where has my love for FFXI gone?