07 . 09 . 01 :

Illness :

I feel ill. Again. I tend to feel ill a lot lately. I don't know if it's due to the heat or my current circumstances between myself and a really close friend.
Symptoms : Dizzy, light-headed, stomach churning, extreme moodniess, loss of appetite, blank stare occasionally.
Diagnoses : One messed up girl. Yet, I fail myself again and I have to laugh.

Work:

I woke up today... I'm glad I can go to work. I have no idea why. People tend to shun work and see it as a tiresome chore. I love working! I love the people I work with, I love the people who I see when I work. It's amazing. I feel I have worth within the community... even though I'm only working at McDonalds. I still feel good though, that maybe I made a difference in someone's life by making them a fry and a shake? Lol. It's so silly. ^_^; I must have been dropped as a small child.

Hopes :

Everyday I new hope is born or relit. Today, I just hope I can get through the day without major confliction. I have a huge headache and I feel as though I'd just break down.
I hope I get a hug today. I don't receive them anymore but it'd be nice to have a LARGE and comfy one.
I hope it cools down. The heat is strangling me. I've become extremely lethargic and tempermental due to this humid weather.
I hope I go to bed smiling.
I hope everyone is okay. Especially 2 certain people... one's been feeling down lately and the other is upset because of my stupid actions. I hope they know I never wanted to be this way intentionally. I hope they know I'm sorry for what I did... It's so hard to confess that to them. I don't know why. I feel so little when I talk to them, so insecure ... it's so hard to say what I really mean. I'm an oxymoron. I'm so sorry.