08-09-01
10:28 AM

*sigh* I'm getting into the internet too much again. It's all well and good that I'm getting music, which I love, but that's only one facet of my life, and I've been neglecting the other facets. Went out to see Rush Hour 2 with friends yesterday. It was fun, but that's about all I do with them nowadays. Ug. I need to get out and make new friends. Good thing I'm going to college, I think.

I think. College is a daunting event on the horizon. Both attracts and repels (Ibsen's The Lady of the Sea, anyone?). Hopefully the time with my extended family and old friends will help my depression, but I can't get my hopes up. Hanging with the same friends is grating on my emotional barriers. I find myself attracted to people I oughtn't to be attracted to; people I said I wouldn't be. Maybe going away is a good idea.

I cling to my faith as a life preserver. It's all I think I have, sometimes.