15/08/01
11:48am

This is mostly for last night.

Last night, for some reason I was in real bad mood. I was meant to go Water Polo training, but I was tired so I decided to go to bed, this was like 8pm. I went online a bit first, as I wanted to set a load of downloads going, but my cable was playing up and I couldnt do anything, this put me in an even badder mood.

Anyway at 8:30pm I went to bed and a lay there.. it's very hot and I'm having trouble sleeping, so I spend 3 1/2 hours thinking. This was the wrong thing to do. Although (like Unne), I daydream alot and I like it because of me being in a bad mood, I started thinking of bad things. First of all about the past.. the past always makes me feel sad, either because I remember bad things that happened or I remember all the good things which I want back. Now I aint one for remembering the past.. I always tell myself to think of the future, but...well.. I wasnt in a good mood. I then spent about an hour daydreaming of really teriible things happening to my family, like them all getting killed etc.. Now I dont hate my family, this was because, at times like this (once every 8 months or so) I think my life is boring.. and I think of things that would get me noticed and liven it up.

Strangely enough, when I woke up in the morning I was in a really good mood... prob because I got some sleep and had a good dream.

Sorry peeps, I'm not normally like that... I hardly ever let things get on top of me, however every 8 months or so I always do this.. think of the past, bad things, I guess it's just all the emotions I pent up (I dont usually let my emotions show in front of other people) coming out.

Bank to my normal self now though...