August 16, 2001
Well, the other day we had a going away party for two of my friends. They're twins, and they're leaving for college this coming tuesday. Everyone's leaving really soon. Almost all of my really good friends were at this party and it was really good to see them all again.. however it made me realize that summer's all but over, and they'll all be gone soon.. I might not see some of them ever again. It hit me pretty hard recently, I'm sure it'll get better but I'm new at this splitting up thing, and I'm not liking it. It's so hard to say goodbye to people you've known you're whole life, people who know almost everything there is to know about you.. some who even know you better than you know yourself.
To add to my sadness, mark was at the party. It felt so weird to be around him with all that's happened between us the last month. It hurt to not talk to him. He's leaving for Chicago Sunday.. then I won't see him again. He's moving there as well as going to school there. Sometimes the human heart amazes me.. it's ability to love, then to discard what it loves so easily amazes and hurts me... as well as confuses me. *sighs*
On a better note Jon's coming up to spend the weekend with me before his classes start.It's gonna be great.
