I feel like Hell.

Last night wasn't fun, at all. I feel at fault for the crap another person is dealing with, and I wish he wouldn't have to deal with my petty issues. He knows who he is, and he knows how much I appreciate him, though.

I got up at 6 AM this morning- due at work at 6:30AM, as always. In my last hour of working (I work 8 hours a day.) I felt as though I was flat out going to die. This.. feeling swept over me and I almost called someone to take over for me so I could sit down. I can't really take all this stress being dumped on me, anymore. People all around me are hurting because of me, I'm wrestling with my own problems, I'm suddenly being striken by some inexplicable exhaustion, and for the first time in my life I feel genuinely defeated. I wish it would just stop. I want to just stop dealing with all this crap going on around me. I'm so terribly tired of people relying on me for this and that. People are expect too much of me, these days, and it's simply incredible. Of all the people to expect a lot of, they expect a lot of the selfish, cynical snob. Go figure.