August 27, 2001 1:00 p.m.

Well, I'm at work right now taking my lunch. I've been feeling really strange today. Melancholy almost. It's a payroll week so I am having to rush to meet the deadline.

Marlaina and I have been reading this book called Boundaries. I am learning so much about how even I have not set proper boundaries. I know I've set some, but I realize that some of my thinking and actions are enmeshed. It's something that can't be fixed overnight, but I know eventually I'll be emotionally healthy again.

I just hope Marlaina and I can get past this last year. I hope that we will be able to laugh everday, one day. Our bonds have grown so strong over this past hear, and I only hope it continues to grow.