the English translation seemed to be left SO open to interpretation that until they make a re-translation it will never be clear. Its such an ambiguous statement.....he might be ready to die or Simply to let the persona of Shadow DIE so that he can go back to Relm and put his old life back together so to speak. It's almost as though Square saw the problems of Lawsuits blaming games for tragic occurences based on Game Occurences LONG be4 Everquest and changed the language of certain occurences and statements accordingly to protect themselves.