I'm sorry to hear about your current situation. It really sucks that both of your kidneys failed on you, but you should be glad you're still alive.

It's strange that your body "thought" that the kidneys were not part of your body, thus they got attacked. I mean, in the past, years ago, everything was fine, and now (although it went gradually starting months ago) things didn't work out inside your body. Like your kidneys suddenly became strangers inside your body, although they're still the same kidneys since your birth. So it may have been caused by some external factor, but I wouldn't know what.

Anyhow, the questions already asked here were things that I'd also have liked to ask, but I now know your answers. While it's your own life and you can decide for yourself, I cannot agree with you not accepting a kidney transplantation. Would you rather have your blood cleaned on a machine every single time? I know I wouldn't.

Of course there is a possibility that your transplanted kidney gets rejected, but there is also a possibility that it gets accepted by your body. Don't forget that. It's a fifty-fifty chance. For your own sake, you should gather more information about this. After all, asking for information never hurts and helps you in deciding things. Who knows it won't be so bad at all?

I wish the best for you. May everything work out for you and let's hope things won't get worse. Take care, dude!