I understand that you're in a frenzy over this, but there's no reason to post in all caps. ;P

But yeah, I think you need to learn how to junction and use your magic; that's what it sounds like to me. It took me two playthroughs, and screwing up like you've done to get me to learn how to do it properly. :D

Where are you in the game? It sounds like you're far, so I'm going to echo what other people have said, and tell you to go to the Heaven and Hell Islands, and start drawing some of their really powerfuly magic. Or actually, if you find that those monsters are too hard for you, just start training anywhere, and get magic. Then when you're strong enough, go to those islands.