Okay, I'm not religious, so I likely shouldn't be here, but here's my 2 cents never the less.

God has given you everything you need to go on. Everyone around the world can pary until they're blue in the face: it's up to YOU to utilize it all. Be strong, embrace what you feel, and use the experiences you've been through. Easier said than done, I know, but you can get though this.

I'm pulling for ya man!