I recently lost a friend. He hurt me several times and I always forgave him. I hurt him once (at least I hope I didn't hurt him any other times) and now he's decided to shut me out of his life forever. It's very complicated but basically he really hurt me, some might call it betrayal. I got frustrated, said something to a friend on msn, he asked for the log, which I sent (and not cause I wanted him to see it but because I thought he had the right). Hasn't been a moment since when I havn't thought about it and hated myself for it.