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7-9-01. The last day before my holiday
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I'm in a reasonably good mood, for quite a few reasons. Today is my last day of hell at work before my 9 day holiday and my parents are going away too. That means I have the house to myself at long last. I can get up when I want, I can make my own food, I can use the computer whenever I want, I can go into town when I want and I can use the phone/internet when I want. Me? Selfish? Naah. I just need a little freedom for once. I hope the feeling of depression won't be too much to bear once I return to work the following Monday.
Why did I come back to EoFF so soon? Well, I always told you I'd be coming back, but I didn't expect the new site to fail so miserably in such a short time. That's what you get when you assign mods that can't handle responsibility...or mods that abuse power. It's out of my control anyhow, the boss makes all the decisions, and most of his decisions are downright awful. I've tried to advise him, but to no avail. He's right and I'm wrong.
The name change...I loved the name "Rainecloud" but after 13 months of using it...I've grown somewhat tired of it. I've been to lots of places with the "Rainecloud" name, and I was a naive and stupid newbie when I first used it. That's how most people remember me, and I want that to change. Besides, I just love Knightmare.
To quote Rydia: "Playing on words again! You clever thing!"
This final day at work will go so slowly...they always do. I don't think I can stand stapling one more funeral service sheet together. Why do people have to die dammit!?
I'm glad I've been accepted back here. I knew it would be difficult for you to welcome me yet again after my plans have once again failed, but you have done...because you care.
Well, since I've been back, I've been murdered by Wyllius six times in 2 days, so that's a good start.
I'm enjoying reading this daily grind thread, but some of the posts really do worry me - Alixsars for instance...he must be having such a hard time in life if he thinks suicide is the way out. Everyone here is finding life so much more difficult than I...and I am thankful I don't really have any major problems to deal with. The only thing I have to deal with from time to time is myself.
Alixsar - don't do anything silly. You'll sort things out. We here at EoFF care about you (I personally do) and ORPG's aren't meant to be personal anyway...don't worry if someone kills you on it. It's just a game isn't it? Things always get better somehow. Just do the things you enjoy. Be selfish for a while - it really helps
'till next time...
