September 11, 2001 11:10 PM

Today added a lot to the hopeless, bitter, angry resentment I feel towards the world. I've always felt that life was a battle. It's me versus the world. Today just goes to remind me that the world always wins. Everyone else fights the same battle, knowingly or unknowingly. Each of us fights alone, and it's impossible to win.

But we have to do what we have to do. Giving up has never been an option. We just have to take what life throws at us and deal with it if possible.