I would post this in EOEE but I cant....
I went to the a english room for college yesterday. Today i found out that the room was the right room to be in but that my class actually was after the class that I was in. No big deal so Ill go to class at the right time.
THEN SNAP SNAP!!!
I remember now! Yesterday there was a girl that I have a crush on in that class. Ive always had feelings for her but I dont think she is interested. It drives me star gaizing mad!!! I mean whenever I see her my eyes fell like they jump out of my head. I think its noticeable. Everyone Ive know from school says hi to me . Some one In class did that I knew from highschool, it seemed like a momment that she may say hi to me to or acknowledge me I went to an art mentorship with her..will not her in partciullar she was just included in our group and I was in art with her for like 2 years and so didnt say hi . She was silent and wouldnt look at me. Some part of her seemed to involve an effort not to look at me. IT DRIVES INSANE. SHE IS the soul reason that I choose my user name! I dont know what it is about her but when I see her my eyes just about jump right out. It feels like this I dont mean it in a cartoon way.
ARGH!!! ARGH!!! I M GOING TO LOOSE IT AGAIN! Maybe I should kill myself now so I wont want to do it later on!!!
Its such a complicated and confussing story about her and I , I wouldnt know where to begin. There is a story and yet there is no story.
I CANT TAKE IT IM SO CONFUSED!!! Just by remembering how she messed with my head and just by seeing her yesterday and now I have to be in a class with her.
I studder when I read and talk, I diddnt talk much in high school.
Anyways
ARGH!!!
TALK TO ME PLEASE GUYS, Ill keep you updated . Please dont leave forever this is a complicated issue and it is likely to make me extrememly emotionall and wacked out.
Ps: I wont kill myself but I cant explain what she does to me without necassrly even putting worth any effort at all to do it.