The Journal Thread (October)

[Rinoabella]

Today was bad. I haven't been getting as much sleep as I should, and I felt terrible today. The only good thing that's happened lately is that I found out I'm getting an award at prizegiving on Thursday. I'm coming 2nd in one of my subjects, but I'm not exactly sure which one.


Have you ever felt like your only comfort was your cage
You're not alone, I've felt the same as you.
Have you ever felt like your secrets give you away
You're not alone, I've been there too.
Everyone is looking, and everyone is laughing.
But I think everyone feels the same.
Everybody wants to feel ok, everybody wants to.
Everybody wants to feel.

I'm crying now. For real.

[Mikztsu]

*pastes from LJ*

[ mood | Many ]
[ music | Voices. ]


"Bare your fangs, master Ghostie..."


Hello Journal thing and everyone else.


w00t, it's friday and I feel good, yet tired. It's around 1:30am right now. Long week is behind me. I had many from 9am to 5pm days.-_-

I spoke with Lilly on 5th time in a row now, and now we talked about 20 minutes. I would've loved to talk with her longer, but it's getting kinda expesive talking long distance phonecalls everyday. Today it was just so emotional 'cose she cried because of something for about 10 minutes and we laughed a lot too. Yeah, lots of feelings fits in 20 minutes. When she started crying...well, I can't describe that feeling I had as she cried and tried to talk to me at the same time and all. I just have never wanted to hug anyone more before than I wanted to hug her.

Hmm..I'm too tired to write anything more right now. Even typing takes lot of effort when tired. -_-

Try to bear with another tired entry by same tired Mik again. *goes to..*sigh*, I just can't call *that* thing a bed.

~Mikael

[Daryl]

I've revived my opendiary account... link in my sig. I'll be cutting and pasting from there from now on.

I wrote two entries today, so, I'll post 'em both.

Friday, October 26, 2001

Weekends rawk. xD (11am or so)
I totally lucked out and had no classes today! This week Thursday and Friday, as well as the weekend, is the WMEA (Wisconsin Music Educators Association) state conference... most all my music teachers, and many of my peers, are attending. So, many classes cancelled... yesterday I only had one class, today I had none! =D

To make it even better, in a couple hours my roommate's leaving, and she'll not be back 'til late, if at all (she may go to her parents' home for the weekend)... so, I get the room to myself! I enjoy my time alone. Relaxing is a good thing!


I'm looking forward to a weekend of hanging with Laura and Joel (since those morons Dan and Mike are going home, hmph), and killing time posting and chatting with my numerous online friends.


I'm slightly bored right now... taking a break from playing FFVI, heh, I thought to check my e-mail, but as always I have none. I'm so unloved. =P I'll probably go spam up the various fora I'm registered with. Heh, I complain about belonging to too many to keep up with, yet I joined still another today, Bastardly Productions. It looks like an entertaining place.


Hm, what else can I ramble about? Eh, I don't know, so, I'll just stop for now.




Grr. (6:45pm or so)
I'm really cranky all of a sudden. Maybe it's because the caffeinated goodness from my cappuchino wore off. I don't know. For whatever reason, people are annoying me. It's easy enough to stay in my room apart from people, seeing as most all my friends have either gone home for the weekend, or are out doing stuff. Online, the people I'd like to talk to aren't around, and the people who are talking to me are annoying me... no fault of theirs, I'm just not in a very sociable mood.

That and I'm bored. I have this time to myself tonight and I don't want to be by myself yet again, dammit! Even when I'm hanging with my friends (on- or offline), I feel so freakin' isolated.


People just don't understand me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not one of those "ooh, I'm so different and mysterious, you'll never understand me" type people. It's true, though. People don't understand me, only a small amount have even put forth any effort to try. It hurts when I have something I'd like to discuss with a friend, and I know aforementioned friend just wouldn't get it, or would be weirded out, or somesuch thing.


Times like this, I just wish I could go away and not come back, just leave everyone and everything I know and start completely over again. It'd be the third time I've started over. Heh. Am I just not able to be happy? I make peace with and begin getting along with my family, I make friends, I fall in love, and then I systematically start to drive all those special people in my life away from me. Why the hell do I always do that? Is it fear? Anger? I'm I more masochistic than I thought, and just feel like hurting myself by depriving myself of companionship and happiness? I don't have the slightest idea, but it's got to stop. I just need someone to be here with me, here for me, but the few who I could trust enough for that task aren't around, and probably won't be. Ah, well. Es la vida.


I'll stop now.

[Spatvark]

[Mood: Bored ]
[Music: Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life) by Green Day]

Wow, what a dull day... It's been half-term & I've spent it all at home working... I've got to get out! & not just for fags:smoking: or booze

Still tomorrow nite I'm off 2 a gig, it should b good

[Ashi]

Live journal went down today. And I need to write about this. It's a bit embarrassing but who cares. I'll paste it in my lj when it comes back up.

I was always told to let this year pass without any worries and without exhausting myself. But ... it will not "pass" this way because I'm not passing in school. I know next year is the "actual" important one but ... this year is just as important.

The reason I'm reminding myself of that is because I got my report card today. I failed Geology by alot, but I can work on that because it's different with Geology and this isn't the "actual" final grade. I *almost* failed Biology but I didn't. *Phew*. But I need to work on it more. The rest isn't really a big problem. The only grade I'm *actually* proud of is the one I got for Religion Studies. It wasn't a full grade but I worked hard on it. I got a 100% in English but I don't even study!

Teacher-parent meeting is on Monday. I told my mum she'd be hearing things she doesn't want to hear. But she say's she just wants to face it. ><;

I probably knew something like this would happen sooner or later.

I think something's bugging Faith. Last year, it was like, I'm always the one looking angry, annoyed, sad or depressed. And she was always the one telling me to "smile" and "let it go" and asking me what's wrong and sticking by whenever I'd activate the tear machine. I just wish I could help her with what's bothering her. She say's she's fine ... but that's what I used to say last year. This year, the "real" me partly came back. The one who talks alot. xD I think I'll ring Faith today and just keep her company.

Okay, here's something weird that's happened today. I "never" do things like this.
Mother-tongue teacher after looking at my literature preperation: Where's the rest of your work?
Me: The lesson is pretty short.
Teacher: When we start working on it, you'll see how long it really is.
Me: Yeah. When we work on it ourselves we don't understand "everything".
Teacher: Oh, you don't, do you?
(or something like that)
Me: What's the use of coming here then?

Bea started laughing the minute the teacher went away. This is so ... I've never talked like that with a teacher before. It was always panic, distress and excessive sweating. xDD

CasCas was absent today. I hope she's okay. She was supposed to either ring or send a texty on Thursday but I got none. *worries*

I'm giving away my computer. I don't want it anymore ... I'll probably hook the laptop up but I don't want to use it as much. I really want to concentrate on schoolwork for now. I hope it happens ... I already uninstalled alot of stuff (including MSN and YM ;_. And I'm going to write what's left on the 'puter on CDs. Then uninstall AIM and ICQ. And *gasp* Adobe Photoshop 6.

I barely selpt last night. So tired. _-_;

[Spatvark]

[Mood: Bored]
[Music: Ultimate Jedi Death Move by Jecano]

God! Holidays are so bloody boring! I need to get a job, but I'm too lazy to work... Oh well, back at school in 3 days; at least then I'll have something to do

I went to the gig I mentioned before- It sucked! Jecano didn't play their best song, Ultimate Jedi Death Move, so I'm listening to it now. It's so funky!

Maybe I should think of finishing off my Pure 2 Coursework? Gotta do something apart from smoke copious amounts of weed and play computer games...

Why am I even writing this down? Ah sod it... might as well...

[Tragic Rain]

I took the ACT yesterday. Then Michael and I went to the Renissance Fair, which was ok i guess. then...*tryst to 'member* we went to burger king, then BACK to the fair to see my aunt bellydance. Then we went to the mall and slowly walked through the porn section of spencers trying to look like goofs.....god it was fun.

[Beowulf]

Today October 29, 2001: Went to school. School was shut down early because of something with the food. The principal sounded really upset, so most guesses was that it has to do with Antrhax.

[bennator]

10.29.01
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I know I should say something about how I feel at the end of the marching band season, or that my first quarter of high school has ended so soon, but I'm not going to. I've been thinking and worrying too much, so I gave myself the best antidote, work. With forensics and science olympiad, and concert band, plus a little chatting, and a little FF, I can keep my mind free. However, now I don't seem to sleep nearly enough *yawn*.

[Danni]

Originally posted by Beowulf
Today October 29, 2001: Went to school. School was shut down early because of something with the food. The principal sounded really upset, so most guesses was that it has to do with Antrhax.

*huggles her lil bro* You got the day off due to Baking power. Yup. I called my inside sources to find out waht the flip happened at your school and here's the deal.. they found a mysterious white powder in the truck that delivers milk *yum yum* to school.. they wigged out and closed school, just to find out it was harmless baking powder. I suposse you can't be too careful but honestly.. *dies*

As for me.. meh! I've been gloomy, and I think it somewhat shows. The majority of the people I used to talk to online have been leaving recently. I really only talk to Mikkerz and Rafael lately. It's 3:26am now.. forgive me if I sound as if I'm truly bored.. because in all honesty.. I am.

I'm really bored here, and I pretty much can't wait to go home. I mean, I love Jon and I love being with him. I just don't like it here. I miss my friends and my siblings.. *ack! I admitted that!!* and I'm just bored here I guess. One of Jon's roommate's is a complete arse. I can't stand him for the life of me. Like at first I guess he was attempting to be polite to me, even tho he really didn't want me here and didn't like me *before he ever met me*, but he just kinda stopped. He doesn't have resect for anyone, and he's flat out rude. Those of you who I've talked to recently or have read my lj know why. grrr...

I'm also looking a bit forward to December.. yeah I know.. wtf Danni? November isn't even here yet. Well, a lot of things are supossed to happen in Dec. Like, GOOD things. People have promised me we'd see each other and i'm extremely excited. As much as I want to see everyone a ton, there are two I'm practically daydreaming about seeing. *don't go getting any ideas dammit! I see your little minds working* I can't wait to finally see Mark again, and talk face to face.. I'm not sure if I feel nervous or excited. maybe it's both.

I made my new signature today because well, I LOVE the nightmare before christmas.. and I was thinking about something.. having to do with stars ... even though there are no stars in my sig. Go figure

[Funkmonkey Deluxe]

October 30, 2001
3:23 p.m.
Mood - Excited
Music - "Beautiful Disaster" - 311

I can't wait untill tomorrow. Actually, I can, but I'd rather not. Every Halloween, my friends and I get together, and we hide in one of my friend's front yards waiting for unexpecting trick-and/or-treaters.:scary:

Something that's been bothering me... I get around 8-10 hours of sleep every night, and yet I have those dark lines under my eyes that come from sleep deprivation.:strung: . Also, when I wake up, I feel like I hardly slept. Also, the dark lines seem to be getting worse.

EDIT: I just found out that my friend ( the one whose house we get together at) is really sick. On the verge of vomiting kind of sick. So, unless he gets better by tomorrow, I'll be sitting at home. This Halloween has been a disaster. My friend and I had to decorate his house at the last minute (I hate putting up fake cobwebs, Frustrating.), We don't have time to carve any pumpkins to put out, it might rain tomorrow, there's going to be less people due to the terrorist threat, and now the whole thing might not even happen! I had to call all the other friends, and tell them that I'd call them tomorrow, to tell them if they can come or not.

[Delglad]

October 30 2001

Tomorrow is halloween. It's one of my favorite holidays, but for some reason I can't bring myself to care. I never got a costume or anything, and didn't even bother shopping around or anything I usually enjoy. I'm even going to a friend's party tomorrow. I should be excited, but.....
I guess it's just another year passing me by. Didn't even get anything done I had planned to on one of my rare days that are free.
...Does it even matter?

Okay, I will bore you no longer.

[Calliope]

i spent four hours yesterday writing up about five essays. voluntarily. anything so i don't have time to pause. cause if i do, i'll think. and then i'll think about stuff and things. and that is bad. argh! i just thought about it now...sigh. you'd think it would go away. yeah. whatever.

[Sakura Yume]

Wowzers. I spent 4 hours last night drawing some perfectly pointless things just because I wanted to. I haven't quite finished the 2 I've been working on yet though. I should've been doing some of my tonnes of homework probably.

[Agent Proto]

Dear October Journal Thread,

Say Goodbye.

~Proto

P.S. Hopefully, someone real remember to make a November Journal Thread.