rubah
02-18-2007, 05:54 AM
I'm not talking about how in cartoons the ghost or spirit pops up out of the body when people pass out or die!
This is more subtle and probably just all my imagination, but it's pretty interesting and I was wondering if anyone ever really experienced anything similar.
Just now, when visiting a site, (naimoka.com if you were wondering) I just had the most intense sensation of the entire internet as a corporeal thing, free of any context of computer or monitor; just an expanse the color of BGCOLOR stretching forever in all directions, and then a thought of someone before me, not formed of bouncing electrons and waves of light, but just of stuff.
Like someone's thoughts stretching back forever and into the future are right there, and you're in it.
I dunno, I can't explain it anymore xD
There's been other times I've been detached in the same way; one excruciating morning at a friend's sleepover with too little sleep and I was the only one awake waaaaaaaay too early in the morning, I kept telling myself that I wasn't there, and it worked in a strange mental way.
Stu confided to me that he's had the reverse sensation about computing; an intense realization of the box sitting on your desk reality, and all this stuff is insubstantial. he can tell you about that if he likes. I don't think I've ever felt that way, and I am so glad, because it is a very terrible reality to have to face.
When I was younger (little? is 12 little?) on IRC I had a neat image of the channels. The entire server was a tall skyscraper, and each room/group of rooms had their own floors and unique layout. #GHC was a big broad open room with tiled floors and large windows looking down. #toc was more like a nightclub, with stairs leading down and a bar and very darkly decorated compared to the bright almost sterile look of #GHC.
The image of channels as actual rooms has faded a lot over time, and I couldn't tell you how #eoff looks one bit, but the memory of the walls and floors and decor behind the lines of text remains.
That's not so much an out of body feeling of detachment, so I guess it's off from the foremost topic, but it came to mind, so whatever xD.
So, had a sense of not-being where you were in your place? Sometimes it happens in a nigh-orgasmic state. Kinda like what Charlie went through in Flowers for Algernon I guess.
This is more subtle and probably just all my imagination, but it's pretty interesting and I was wondering if anyone ever really experienced anything similar.
Just now, when visiting a site, (naimoka.com if you were wondering) I just had the most intense sensation of the entire internet as a corporeal thing, free of any context of computer or monitor; just an expanse the color of BGCOLOR stretching forever in all directions, and then a thought of someone before me, not formed of bouncing electrons and waves of light, but just of stuff.
Like someone's thoughts stretching back forever and into the future are right there, and you're in it.
I dunno, I can't explain it anymore xD
There's been other times I've been detached in the same way; one excruciating morning at a friend's sleepover with too little sleep and I was the only one awake waaaaaaaay too early in the morning, I kept telling myself that I wasn't there, and it worked in a strange mental way.
Stu confided to me that he's had the reverse sensation about computing; an intense realization of the box sitting on your desk reality, and all this stuff is insubstantial. he can tell you about that if he likes. I don't think I've ever felt that way, and I am so glad, because it is a very terrible reality to have to face.
When I was younger (little? is 12 little?) on IRC I had a neat image of the channels. The entire server was a tall skyscraper, and each room/group of rooms had their own floors and unique layout. #GHC was a big broad open room with tiled floors and large windows looking down. #toc was more like a nightclub, with stairs leading down and a bar and very darkly decorated compared to the bright almost sterile look of #GHC.
The image of channels as actual rooms has faded a lot over time, and I couldn't tell you how #eoff looks one bit, but the memory of the walls and floors and decor behind the lines of text remains.
That's not so much an out of body feeling of detachment, so I guess it's off from the foremost topic, but it came to mind, so whatever xD.
So, had a sense of not-being where you were in your place? Sometimes it happens in a nigh-orgasmic state. Kinda like what Charlie went through in Flowers for Algernon I guess.