Steve, it happened. I shut my eyes and I'm there. I'm there in that paddock as you bring your hand down with force upon that pig's cheek. It happened. Smack. I can hear it. I can hear your small hand. Steve, you can hear it too. You can see it. You can be it. Do it. Do it right now. How can you say this is a lie? This feeling? You know this is reality now. Stop fighting it and just be.