I know, but when I think to myself and say 'nothing went right, it shatters your confidence a bit.

And it's lazy, but trying to a bit where [x] claims to be [y] in a thirty page document is just intimidating. It'd take me half an hour to even check. To be honest, even with all that, I'd still be lost in the conversation. Ugh, why do I even bother.

What this tells me is I should keep a log of activity in real-time, so I don't even have to check back.